Wow. I am amazed, shocked (in a good way), and breathless. Just came from the Jeffrey Carollo Music Scholarship at NJPAC. It was amazing. Totally wasn't expecting to be blown away. And it was a double treat! I just got free tickets from NJPAC for auditioning for the Young Artists' Institute real early, and I randomly chose the recital. So I open the playbill and guess who's name I first saw? Christine Afable! Wah! LOL. I haven't seen that girl since... well, 4th grade! That girl's amazing at piano, even back then. I looked up to her, and now she's a Junior. I remember me and Isha bowing down to her Flight of the Bumblebee. And now she's big at NJPAC as a scholar! I'm so proud. She was amazing tonight.
The other kids were amazing. There was this one girl (I swear, a Hoa in the making) who was only 9 years old and she was doing trills and all that advanced stuff. She's been with the program for 3 years! Dude. Starting at the scholarship when your 6. Some people have stayed there for 8 or 7 years and are my age. Now, I'm kind of jealous. =p I've never been in any stuff like those, and now I just feel so old. And I admit, back then I'd feel really upset. I'd cry even. It was always no money, knew about no auditions, and never felt good enough. I'm not as upset as before, seeing what I have now. More free time... great friends. But still. It would've been nice to start early you know? Get that proffessional training I've always wanted. Improve.
Granted, I love Tita Evelyn and all. But I've been studying with her for 8 years. Wow. That long already? And she's taught me so much up to where I am now. But that's it. "Up to where I am now" for the past year. I've lost... the passion for the piano. It sucks. I guess I'm bored. I don't practice for weeks now. I've gotten stiff fingers. Which feels so weird. I haven't been able to express myself in that way for a long time.
But after seeing this recital... wow. It's been sparked again. I want to do that. I want to express. And oh, classical music... it's so beautiful it's not fit to have a label such as "classical music". My ears have been opened to new composers and music. And La Campanella is so amazing my jaw dropped the entire piece. And Toccata! Deng, the girl was 13! Me? I've been playing Beethoven for the last 3 years.
Sad to say, and sad to leave someone. I need a new teacher. But finding one is the problem, damn. I figure study with him/her for a year to prepare myself. Next year, I'll audition for the scholarship program. Maybe for vocal too.
I'm really glad I went. I felt the music in me. And it was such a wonderful feeling. I was on the edgeof my seat the whole 2 hours. My jaw open. Also, NJPAC is beautiful. It's amazing. And dammit. I've made up my mind.
I'm going to perform there.
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