I got my braces off today. I look like a rabbit named Chomper. I'm not prettier. I hate my retainer.
Didn't tell anyone, they'll dinf out soon enough. In any case, I hope my mouth can adjust quickly. Ack, so I'll still have to have something in there. Guess I'll always look like a monkey from the side view. But I am glad they're off. It feels weird, though. What a downer. My mouth is still restricted from what it wants. Damn, this painful retainer. I'm sorry. Muah.
June 29 was the Filipo Idol competion inn Exchange Place--or rather, was supposed to be. This rush of wind and rain and thunder totalled the whole Filipino Festival. I thought it was hilarious. Some guy was still on stage singing "This Is The Moment" while the rain started to pour. Tents overturned, chairs toppled over, $4000 worth of equipment soaked, short little brown people running with barbeque to the sides for shelter... and this pour guy singing on a stage with no roof and no audience. He got down and kept singing from under and umbrella. What a hilarious sight. Ah, it was truly amazing. What it must be like to perform in the rain, huh? I loved the irony of my song, too: "Don't Rain On My Parade." LOL. I don't know why it had to rain just then, right when I get the opportunity to perform. I think God was punishing me for something. Yea, probably. And the guy in charge of it all seemed really pompous. But I can't judge. Not everyone I wanted was there, so that's alright. Jeez, I'll never have enough time if it gets postponed.
Anyway, I've been cooking a lot lately. Healthy stuff, you know? Trying to get my mom to eat healthier, but Tita Dolly isn't open to anything. Grr, hate narrow-minded people. I cooked an amazing dinner of soba noodles, sauteed vegetables, and honey-ginger chicken... and she fills up half of the table with leftovers. Also, been working out every day. I've lost 4 pounds I think... since the first weeks of June. 93 is the lowest I've seen in a long time. I don't know what I want. Maybe I wanna be skinny and see my shoulders and collar bone and back bones. Would I be happier then? More confident with the way I look then? I don't know. But I'll do it for the change. The majority of my life I've been overweight and unsightly... I can change that. Make myself beautiful because I see myself as that. I like that.
I leave for San Francisco in 2 days. It still hasn't sunken in yet. That I'll be traveling by myself. That I'll be in a totally different place the other side of the country, learning things. That I'll be seeing my father, his family, his home for the very first time. That my mom won't be there. Wow. I'm not even ready yet. I still have that Current Events class I'm taking online. I can only hope I get internet access in SA. If I don't, HA I'm screwed as fuck. Also trying to study the SAT prep book. Hoa told me he got a 2300. Why the hell did that kid take the SAT already?
Crap. I'm gonna fail. And cry.
Tomorrow I planned a picnic with fellow random sophomores who could make it. Hoboken Park, to see the fireworks. I missed them last year. I wanna cook "Aloha Chicken" and Zuchinni Bread. And now I hear it might rain? Mouu.. Lord, please help. Sige na please? :\